i wonder if i hadnt said it last sunday we would still be happy
i wonder if i raised requests for a change instead of break-up he would change for me
i wonder if i could have given myself a time frame rather than doing it so impulsively i would hurt less
i wonder if i hadnt said it last sunday, it would hurt 100 times more in the future break up....
but i know when sum1 doesnt luv me, theres no point in detaining him anylonger.
u'd know it when he has lower n lower n lower tolerence level with u
u''d know it when he avoids u n stop seeing u as often
u'd know it when he prefers to hang up on u n watch telly than to listen to ur crap or stay on the fone with u when u were walking alone on the street late at night
u'd know it when he refuses to touch and lost interests in u for more than half year
u'd know it simply when he doesnt luv u anymore, but hanging on, waiting for the right moment, waiting for u to make the first move.
now everything seems so horrifying...
men, bf, future, common friends, parties, festivals, october, single world, flight attendents, models, young beautiful girls, canadian chinese, his friends, whampoa, my place...........
when will these empty, lost, lonely, strengthless, pointless feelings, heartache go away??? can i have surgery to make myself less sentitive n sentimental? can sum1 pls help me fastforward the clock? cox my pain cant seem to go away... they lied.. time doesnt fly...
lost my appetite for 2 days... i have never starved myself for any1, this is for u... i really really luv u
