not sure where i gained the courage from, maybe its from that bottle of wine or maybe its peggy's persuasion. we're just the same type of person, either all or nothing. no in-betweens pls. no FRIENDS-WHO-DUNT-GIVE-A-FUCK-ABT-EACH-OTHER pls. u either tell me in my face or i can never move on. so i went.
and he came down. i think most of our convo are nothing new to every1. just abt a guy who thot his ex was super annoying n clinggy who wudnt let go. i'm sure hes tried his best in playing this annoyed, ruthless n cold dumper role, cox hes actually quite good.
yes i know i was really annoying, crying here and there, throwing unnecessary questions, but most importantly, i was trying really hard to capture the last bit of visual memory of him. i will always always rmb the mean looks and his cold words. it motivates me everytime not to think back, but to move forward.
yes, i should really 顧掂自己先. this lines a stab in the heart. as if i'm nothing good and i dunt deserve u at all. finally u've admitted it.
now, i cant force myself to say 'i still love u" anymore. cox i cant possibly still fall for sum1 who thinks n treats me like dirt right? i'm now a hater, see, i'm making good progess...
