i tried to plan my wkend ahead to stay away from this horrible feeling but it doesnt seem to work...
was supposed to do charity work this morning, gave out lanterns to mentally disabled kids. i waited there at the kindergarten for 45 mins and the volunteers showed up, passed the lanterns to the principal and then left........! hmm... ok....
then i called a friend to join her at big wave bay, but she was still sleeping... wandered around in shau kei wan alone for another hour...
stayed on the beach til 5.30pm. didnt swim, didnt talk much... just didnt have the vibe to do anything... am i gonna live like this for the rest of my life? empty, lonely and bored? i'm scared...
on the long bus ride home, i was sitting with a couple and their baby daughter. then my mind flied back to our good old days... how i wish i cld have spent all the time u were supposed to have for me after ur qualification... this was when the pain n regret came back...
