it was a love letter, written in late Dec 2007. the guy who wrote it stayed up at 6am in the morning while i was snoring so loud in bed. in the letter, i was called 'little baby'.
he told me he loved me so much and thought i was the one who's supposed to walk thru his tough time with him but was hurt by sumthing i said. feeling lonely and upset, he found himself facing 4 walls, got no1 to talk to.
u probably think i would get all emotional again after re-reading love letters from my ex. but i didn't. altho' i'm not quite sure how to explain the feelings in words.
i know i said i hate him, he used me, etc etc. deep down, i really dunt wanna be a hater. altho being a hater will prolly help me recover faster. i secretly still believe he really liked me, even tho i not sure how long did it last. a lot of people find it hard to seperate lust from love.
when i was younger i often wondered, wot the fuck is love? what is it like to really love a person? cox all i've been getting is lust! now, i'm proud to say out loud, when the day comes, i'll have no regrets to bring into that coffin. becox i've finally loved wholeheartedly. i've finally found out the difference between love n lust. the bonus is, that special sum1 had also loved (or "lusted") me in return, at least for the first two months.
all of a sudden, i put down the hatreds again (err, maybe its bad...)
i've also learnt that, i mustn't date any more men whom will make my heart skip a beat. cox there follows heartaches. and it may last for the longest time u can ever imagine. not too pleasant a situation eh?
